Tears
I have never cried so many days in a row, in a month, for months on end. Wedding planning and the aftermath has been devastating. We had a 37-person pandemic wedding, complete with masks, gloves, and pettiness. My mother behaved selfishly, my father was aloof, and I got married to the love of my life. My in-laws graciously threw the wedding and had been so supportive of us. I feel like my entire being has been ripped open and continue to be pulled apart. My family showed their true colors - that their feelings and thoughts were more important than me and how in the world I'd been dealing with this situation. My mother-of-the-bride forgot how to be a mom. My proud father threw a tantrum when we wouldn't let anyone else besides us speak on the day. My brother spat in my face a week before the wedding saying that he didn't give a shit about my feelings and he was going to do whatever he wanted. My sisters were physically there in spirit but not in strength. I have been knocke...